On Missing My “Real” Job: A Nurse I Will Always Be

As all mom’s know, we have the task of being a mother first, and then if we also work, we have our “real” job as well.  My “real” job is in nursing.

Being a nurse is an amazing thing.  You get to impact people at the time in their lives when they need it most.  You get to show kindness and compassion to fellow human beings while they are at their one of their most vulnerable points in life.

I’ve been a full-time nurse since January 2013.  Well, at least until the beginning of June 2016.  A nurse is someone who will always have a love-hate relationship with their job.  The things that wooed you to fall in love with this career–kindness, compassion, spending time making one patient feel like they are the only one–are the things that are most often pushed aside by the insane regulations and expectations placed on nurses these days.

It is almost impossible to fulfill all the requirements that nurses are required to fulfill in the mere 12 hour shifts they are required to work.  Yet, millions of nurses across America manage to pull off this miraculous feat shift after shift after shift.

This was the wonderful workforce that I was a part of for 3 and a half years.  I loved working on my patients, monitoring them, making them feel like they were my only concern.  I loved being the one the doctors relied on to be their eyes and ears, asking me for recommendations on what I thought needed to be done at that point in time.

There is a glorious power and responsibility in being a nurse.  You are the 24/7 workhorse that notices the tiny detail that shows that your patient is about to take a turn for the worse.  You are the stop-gap that prevents the patient from making it all the way around the corner before it’s too late.  It’s harder for doctors to notice these things when they are only seeing the patient for 5 minutes.

The honest ones admit that we, the nurses, are what makes them successful.  Research studies have shown time and time again that it is the nursing care that determines a patient’s outcome, whether good or bad.

I have always taken great pride in being a nurse, and felt the heavy responsibility of it all as well.

Nursing truly is the hardest job you will ever love. nursing-the-hardest-job-youll-ever-love

You will complain about it and the outrageous expectations placed on you by administration.

You will go home aching and feeling like you are literally falling apart, yet still wondering if you did enough.

You will wish you didn’t “have” to do this job in order to pay the bills.

You will one day, like I did, find yourself NOT in the job and missing it like CRAZY.

There is no winning for us.  Nurses who are true nurses at heart will never be able to walk away from the job and never look back.

It will leave a gaping hole in your heart until you find your way back into it.

That’s where I am right now–searching for a part-time nursing job that will ease the ache in my heart to get back into the business of saving others, but at the same time allow me to fulfill my family obligations as well.

You always need to find that family-work balance, with family coming first.  Right now, I also need to find the balance that saves me from the temptation of just walking into any hospital in scrubs and getting to work.  😉  Just kidding…

Any nurses out there??  Have you ever been out of a job, or became a stay-at-home mom and experienced the same feelings of missing the nursing field?  Please comment below and let me know!!

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